My Mundane Musings

Growing up I longed for the fast paced life of big city life and corporate America. Now I’m a stay at home mom of 4 in a small rural community! And I wouldn’t have it any other way! (At least for now).

Wednesday March 29, 2006 March 29, 2006

Filed under: Uncategorized — Rebekah Sanders @ 9:11 am

Man, I understand what the Bible says about having to take captive every thought.  If I would have let it happen last night, my mind really could have run away from me.  I’m having to chase away constant thoughts of “scaredness”.  I’m not really fearful because I know that God is in control, but there are times that I’m scared for my husband that this might be more than pneumonia.  I’m just being honest.  I’m sure half of y’all have had the same thoughts.  But that “scaredness” could easily turn into fear if I let it get away from me.  This morning I’m clinging to the “Whatever” verses – “Whatever is righteous, whatever is holy, think on these things…”

I’ve decided that I’m going to make myself a “Blessing Book” today.  Every time one of those ugly thoughts pop into my brain, I’m going to thing of something that I’m thankful for, that I’m blessed with.  I’m going to write down my blessings as I count them.  That way, when I’m not able to think those things in the midst of this struggle (because sometimes it’s really hard), I’ll be able to go back and look at the ones I’ve written down and hopefully pull myself up before I get into a funk.

I think I’ve cried more tears this week than in my life.  I’ve read through the Psalms twice.  I’m crying out to God more than ever and asking Him to reveal Himself in this situation.  And most of all, I’m asking Him to give us answers TODAY!!!

I’ll post this afternoon after the specialist comes in to see Chip and hopefully we get to come home!


4 Responses to “Wednesday March 29, 2006”

  1. Anonymous Says:

    I did the same thing when I was in the hospital while pregnant with Caleb. I kept a journal of all the things I was thankful for and it really helped keep my mind on HIM instead of the fear. I’m continuing to pray for you all. I think going to a bigger hospital might be a good idea if things don’t resolve.  I’m a respiratory therapist and I’ve seem perfectly healthy people come up with respiratory stuff that was really a mystery. Sometimes it is the teaching hospitals that have the resources and the expertise to figure it out. (((((hug))))

  2. Anonymous Says:

    Praying for answers for you today!!  So sorry you are going through this.  I can only imagine what you are going through, but I know I would feel the same way about my dh.  I am not complete without him by my side.  He has been on several short term mission trips and I always miss him terribly and cry.  I’m sure the mission trip pales in comparison to what you are going through.  I used the time during the mission trip to pray for military wives, cuz I can’t imagine how they do it, but I pray God’s blessing on them for their sacrifices.  Hope to hear good news today!!

  3. Anonymous Says:

    Bek that a very good ideal, if you keep you mind on the things that God has done for you, those “ugly” thoughts will have no room.  I still praying.

  4. Anonymous Says:

    continuing to pray my friend, will try and give you a call tomorrow okay:)  I like the idea of the blessing book too…

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